Life in Writing

The eerie beauty of the post-apocalyptic tale

Posted by on Oct 10, 2017 in Life in Writing | 3 comments

The eerie beauty of the post-apocalyptic tale

This post has been written for the October Frights Blog Hop. Thanks to Anita Stewart for organizing it! There is something striking about images of abandoned places slowly being reclaimed by the Earth. Once bustling roads and train tracks, formerly occupied fairgrounds, and houses succumbing to ivy and other plant life give way to fantasy. In the world of post-apocalyptic horror, the scenery becomes a welcome reprieve from the fear and violence. It becomes a source of peace and calm. Its beauty becomes striking. The characters in these stories are now traversing a landscape that no longer belongs to them. “Post-apocalyptic” often refers to “the end of the world as we know it”, and the physical planet never dies, but reclaims. Humans have significantly died off, so the people in the tale no longer have the benefit of numbers. Exploring a vast expanse that could once be tamed and called home now becomes exploring an unknown, sometimes dangerous, territory. Humans are finally the “other” in a narrative we have dominated for too long. For me, it’s a perfect source of escapism. Modern problems now are completely transformed. The thought of building a new world from the ground up, choosing to be a nomad, or even deciding exactly where you want to live without others dictating it sparks the imagination. We see the destruction of society as we know it and the progression to a clean slate, followed by the creation of something new from the wreckage of the old. Finally, there’s the knowledge that this new society, too, will ultimately fail, because that is the nature of humans. Even if it seems ideal at the time, having been built anew with knowledge of the flaws of before, it too will eventually collapse. We now have to learn to go back to a forgotten time, before we were able to rely on grocery stores to provide us with food for the whole winter. Staying protected from the elements, the seasons, and predators is top priority. This shift in priority stops us from cruising through the day-to-day and forces us to start truly living. We have to rely on ourselves, and convenience is out of the equation. There is a supposition that anything is possible–the hint that ghosts could be in the air or that feeling of harsh, sudden wind that makes the hair on the back of your neck stand on end. Without the distractions of technology, leisurely activities and the day-to-day, people can see the world for what it truly is: a wild entity. The Earth takes centre stage and shows us what we already know: once humans are gone, she’ll not only be fine, she’ll thrive. The world will reach this status one day. My only hope is that I’ll be able to witness it when it does. Please follow and like...

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What’s next?

Posted by on Sep 18, 2017 in Life in Writing | 0 comments

I have spent the last several months of this year pushing to get my silly adventure-steampunk-comedy trilogy, Mushroom and Anchovy, published through Inkshares, and on Saturday, September 9th, I hit the 250 preorder mark that would greenlight the project. So… now what? After spending so much time pushing to make my biggest goal of the year a reality, and succeeding, it’s time for a re-orientation. Unfortunately, I’m not very good at down-time, so once this project was successful, I, of course, had a huge list of what to do next. But because I’m also not very good at stepping back and evaluating things, I’ve just kind of waded into a sea of stuff to do without a whole lot of direction. This is why it’s so important to take a break, but I’ve scheduled my break for later on in the month… meaning I’m a bit burnt out already. But I’m working on it! My favourite thing about starting up a Passion Planner earlier this year is that I have a little bit of direction by default and know what my next mini-goal toward my overarching goal will be. And I can draw doodles like this one in the Space of Infinite Possibility. So, here’s what I’m up to! A little social media management My father, Allan Cooper, is an established New Brunswick poet. I have set up a Facebook page for him and am working on helping him spread word of reading events and his new works and projects. I’ve been starting to turn toward the maintenance of his website once again. My husband, actor Brad Butland, is getting a bit of assistance from me as well. Mystery boxes For the better part of this year, I’ve been planning little mystery boxes in the background. I’ve done some research and started curating these mystery boxes, and they will be for sale, starting this month at the Riverview Holistic Fair. I’ve dusted off my old etsy page, Lemon Forest, and also have started up a Facebook page for it. This is a little project I started off mostly for fun, and I’m looking forward to giving it a test run at the Holistic Fair next weekend! Take a look on the Facebook page and follow along for updates and pictures over the weeks to come. Condensing, rebranding I’m working on my online presence by condensing some of my social media. I’m removing my Population: 1 and Hub City Survival Facebook pages. I have been speaking with a graphic designer/artist and hope to collaborate on a few of my projects. I’m not much of a digital artist, so anything I do in that department usually gets outsourced if I want it to actually, you know, look good. A lot of work needs done–particularly for Patreon/Retail Hell/Lemon Forest–and I can only afford so much at a time, so I’m taking my time and working hard to make my work look more appealing! Meal plan I get asked all the time for tips, suggestions, and recipes for going vegetarian or cutting back on meat. This has turned into a longterm project: making a 28-day meal plan filled with tips, life hacks, and more for those interested in pursuing a vegetarian lifestyle, or at least for adding more plant-based meals into their life. I’m hoping to launch this before the end of the year–around late December, all going well–in PDF format. I haven’t fully priced it yet, but I’m looking at around $15 CAD, as it was the price people consistently were willing to pay when I reached out for feedback. I am likely to post about it on Facebook and Patreon when it becomes available! Unicorn Cave Autumn is nearly here, which, of course, means that my Unicorn Cave Writer’s Retreat is just around the corner. I’ll be disappearing into the woods on September 28th for a 24-hour retreat involving hiking, campfires, and harvesting ideas for future projects. This will be my second one this year and will mark the one-year anniversary of me taking these retreats. I’m really looking forward to unplugging for a...

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The case for self-publishing

Posted by on May 19, 2017 in Life in Writing | 0 comments

  Self-publishing is a bit of a polarizing topic. It does certainly have some shortcomings, but I feel that a lot of good writing gets overlooked due to its perceived stigma. I self-published my novella Hub City Survival six years ago. Would I have done things a little differently today? Absolutely–I don’t think anyone can say they didn’t make mistakes in their time, especially with a six-year gap in between. There are scenes I would have re-written altogether, there’s dialogue I would have scrapped and I certainly would hired someone to smash it down with a hammer. But I didn’t, and I’m okay with that. Here’s why: Hub City Survival wasn’t even supposed to get published. In fact, it just kind of popped out one day. I started writing it on DeviantArt and quickly gained a small following. It was a short project. As it gained popularity and reached its conclusion, I decided I wasn’t done with it, so I decided to compile it and sell it. Self-publishing Hub City Survival was never intended to be anything but a limited print run. But, luckily for me, it turned out to be a bit more than that. And, in fact, I keep telling myself I’ll do “one final order” of a batch of books… but every so often there’s a demand, and I end up ordering more! In the wake of the surprising amount of attention the novella got, I decided to try and gently nudge it in the direction of a few media outlets. One of these outlets was a small newspaper with a focus on independent music, local events, and some literature, so I figured I’d be a shoe-in–but I was surprised when I was met with “we don’t really do self-published books”. Of course, this is fine–they can write about whatever they please, and my book didn’t fit their criteria. But I found the focus on independent music and local arts contrasted with their rejection. Independent creators in other media were fine, but apparently writing can only be good if it’s pre-approved by an industry professional. If you post your stories online, nobody thinks twice. If you write a blog post, nobody thinks less of you. But when you decide to put them into print of your own volition? The conversation changes. For those of us whose ideas don’t direct toward a conventional reading audience, self-publishing is a viable option. For those of us who are niche writers, self-publishing is an excellent option. For those of us who don’t want their ideas to direct toward a specific audience, self-publishing is, arguably, the best option. And some people just like the freedom they’re allowed through self-publishing. Why is there such a difference between self-marketing written work versus other forms of craft or art? Please don’t get me wrong! I am extremely appreciative of all the reception Hub City Survival has gotten over the years, and I wouldn’t change anything–rejections included. These are merely questions I ask when I see the reactions when self-publishing is mentioned. I understand minor skepticism that surrounds self-publishing, especially when it comes to editing and re-writing. But, I also feel the self-publishing market has gotten a bad reputation, needlessly. My next book, Mushroom and Anchovy, is being crowdfunded through Inkshares which, essentially, is a self-publishing platform. If it reaches a certain amount of pre-orders, the book will be published through a professional publishing house, but I’m still the one directing the progress. I have developed an audience through Hub City Survival, which will help me with my campaign, and, in my opinion, can be a useful way for other writers to gauge interest in their projects. It is my hope that one day I will be able to professionally publish one of my books through a well-known house, but I don’t want to treat my little “misfit” projects like they’re inferior. They’re still projects I worked hard on and poured a lot of myself into. They still mean a lot to me. That’s Mushroom and Anchovy, that’s Hub City Survival. And that’s why they get self-published instead. Please follow and like...

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Low points and grownup jobs

Posted by on Mar 9, 2017 in Life in Writing | 3 comments

All I ever wanted in life was to be a writer. Literally. I can remember being a little girl and I never had dreams of a family, never cared much about getting married, and didn’t even consider where I’d like to live. The only thing I ever wanted was to be a writer. Let me tell you about one of the lowest points of my life. I remember it vividly. I was 28, and had just gone back to university to finish my degree. I left a good job–I was manager of a growing chain store–and it was the closest to a “grownup job” I’d ever had. Leaving was a huge risk. I had a house and mortgage, and there was no guarantee that I’d be able to find any kind of comparable work after I finished university. I was about a month and a half in, and was doing pretty poorly. I was failing an entry-level required course, and was having a really hard time keeping up with such a full schedule. I was still working part-time at the same place as before and wasn’t quite making enough hours to get by. In short, I was stressed in every sense of the word. For some reason, I decided I should go to a career fair being held at the university. It seemed like a good idea at the time. As I walked in, I gave my name and student ID, and looked around at the stalls, and then I was promptly hit with the horrifying realization that it was actually a terrible idea. I knew before I set my first nervous footsteps into the area that I would find nothing that appealed to me there. That shouldn’t be a problem, though, right? You’d think I’d be so firmly rooted in my life choices at this point that I’d have been chuckling to myself, recognizing my personal need for freedom and allowing myself the knowledge that a “grownup job” wasn’t for me. But, no. Old insecurities popped up and I suddenly felt like everyone was looking at me. I felt sick. And I wanted desperately to leave. If only I’d thought this through! I tried to navigate a sea of people who were milling about, taking their time to savour the experience. Some were talking to potential employers and exchanging information. I just wanted to get out of there without being seen. Being stuck behind a large amount of people in a narrow pathway, though, only meant that I’d have to wait. I bit my lip as tears blinded me. I felt panic well up with a giant lump in my throat. And then, at last, there was a long stretch of pathway that led out of the room. I almost ran. I grabbed my coat and walked right into the women’s bathroom, and I locked myself in a stall. I felt the world around me crumble into heavy sobs. Why am I here? What’s my purpose? Do I have one? What good am I if I can’t even work so much as a desk job? What is wrong with me? All these thoughts and worse flooded my mind. I clenched my fists and leaned heavily on the stall door. I vaguely heard other students coming in and going into the other stalls, some waiting their turn. I didn’t care or pay any mind. I focused most of my energy on staying quiet. What’s worse than a panic attack in public? People asking you if you’re okay while you’re having a panic attack in public. After about ten minutes of intense sobbing, I finally managed to put the world around me back together and I stepped back from the stall. I was okay for that moment in time, but I was wrecked for the rest of the day. Many years later, I still feel like this. In fact, I got in touch with someone from many years back recently, and the words “grownup job” came up. I felt that all-too familiar sting, as someone who’s currently a part-time waitress. I...

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Weathering the storm

Posted by on Jan 20, 2017 in Life in Writing, Uncategorized | 2 comments

UPDATE 11/02/2017: I found this article about 3 weeks after writing this post, and I drew parallels from its boat imagery to my own. Enjoy! Last night as I went to bed, I looked out at the night sky. Snow was falling gently, drifting past the street light and onto the ground. The world around me was in silence, despite the turmoil that was culminating elsewhere. I looked up to the night sky and I whispered, to no one, “what can I do? How can I help?” I fell asleep shortly after lying down, and I slept deeply. An interesting dream visited me not long after. I was in a ferry boat, surrounded by friends and loved ones. The captain, who was someone I actually met only yesterday, announced that a storm was coming in rapidly. We were anchored to a dock, but it would be too unsafe to leave the boat on such short notice. “We’ll be all right here,” said the captain. “Hang tight, though. It could get rocky.” The storm struck almost immediately, bringing with it howling winds and heavy waves. Our boat was strong, though. No one was tossed overboard, and no waves came over the side. I was at a comfortable spot by the payphone, where I’d set up everything I had with me. I was surrounded by friends and a few family members, and had been trying to get ahold of my mom on the phone. I saw a few people behind me who didn’t have a place to sit, so I moved all my things out of the way and let them through. My husband was near, talking to some of my family members. I looked out the window of the boat and saw other boats sailing past, going strong despite the storm, and I silently wished them luck. I wasn’t focused on the storm. I was focused on the people I loved, and the people outside of the boat—the people struggling. I was focused on strangers to whom, in that moment, I could easily give kindness. Before long, the storm passed, and we were well on our way again. There’s something we all can do: weather the storm as best we can. Ground ourselves firmly, prepare for the long haul, and refuse to be distracted from the good around us. The message I received in response to my question, how I could help, was this: more kindness. More generosity. More gratitude. Less judgment. This, too, shall pass. Around the world today—and in one country in particular–people are anchoring their boats against what may be a heavy storm. Maybe the songs we sing in celebration of one another can drown out the deafening howl of the wind. Please follow and like...

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Combining past and present selves

Posted by on Nov 29, 2016 in Life in Writing | 0 comments

“If we think of Baudrillard’s division of collectors into the young and the old, we might account for the seriousness of the older collector by noting that often the nostalgia involved in a hobby is to do with the wish to reanimate an earlier incarnation of the hobbyist.” – In Defense of Hobbies I’ve been thinking about this article–and, in particular, this quote–a lot lately. It seems that my hobby is walking, and watching any animals I find. It doesn’t have to be anywhere in particular, and there doesn’t have to be a destination. If I’m outdoors, I’m happy. I especially love hikes in the woods. I always say that I wouldn’t go back to my younger days because I love the life I live now, and some aspects of my childhood were challenging. But, there are little pockets in my memory that are calm and happy. There was one fall, somewhere between 1996-2000–Dad and I can’t seem to agree on the year–that the two of us were out for a little drive through the Laverty Lake auto trail. We got out of the car when we reached the lake and we took a little look around. I heard a rustling nearby, and I turned around to see a small baby raccoon lying on its back and tossing a leaf around with its little paws. It continued to play, mostly unaware of or unconcerned with our presence, until we drove off. I named the little raccoon Meeko–Disney’s Pochahontas film had been released around this time–and we occasionally drove back, hoping to see it again. We never did. I thought about it for a long time. Recently, I took my daughter down to Alma again for a brief visit with my parents in the middle of the week, just after Halloween. Mom, Amelia, and I decided to go to McLaren Pond in Fundy Park together and walk around the little trail loop that encircled it. We got a little way in and saw a large beaver dam, and watched as four beavers started swimming and working around it. After a few minutes, a little way down the path, a massive beaver–one of the adults, we later learned–wandered into our line of sight. She grabbed a stick in her jaws and tossed it in the air until it got the correct balance, then went back into the water to continue working. We continued down the path, and the second adult walked out of the water further ahead. He turned his head to observe us, and my daughter pointed at him and said “hug!”–she wanted to go over and give the beaver a hug. Something about this entire experience brought back the long-forgotten feelings of that day by the lake, with the baby raccoon tossing leaves in the air nearby. Suddenly, I was a much younger version of myself, standing there and watching the creatures swimming around us and standing before us. The lost feelings of humanity intermingling with nature and the desire to embrace it fully bubbled back to the surface. This feeling of nostalgia that I felt that day was a visitation by my past self. It’s amazing how parenthood forces so many of us to relive our past in a new way: with heightened awareness and appreciation for experiences we may have taken for granted earlier on in our lives. Our children invoke often unexpected memories. November is a strangely nostalgic month for me. It’s the stillness between Halloween and Christmas, and that’s why I like to wait until December first to even start thinking about holiday preparation. This time of year, I’m obsessed with the smell of smoke, and anything that tastes smokey. I love woodsmoke smells and the tastes of smoky coffee, beer, cheese, and Lapsang Souchong tea. It’s a comforting smell during the colder months, but I think a big part of it is the nostalgic reflection I subconsciously feel when I smell it. At our home in Alma, we had a wood stove that Dad would light to keep us warm in the winter. Smelling wood smoke brings me back to cold days at home as a...

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