Posts Tagged "positivity"

Awakening

Posted by on Apr 22, 2013 in Life in Writing | 0 comments

It’s 8 PM. The light has just started to slip down the horizon, painting the sky in dark purple and blue. The weather is still mild enough that you can sit outside without a jacket on. The birds are singing happily in the trees, even though the sun is setting.The air smells fresh and verdant. And faintly of dog dung. This long, heavy winter has finally succumbed to spring.  Every winter I fall into a funk that’s pretty difficult to bounce back from, and it doesn’t seem to get any better until late March at the very earliest. This year, I almost made a very big life change during the winter, and came out of it at the very last minute in the final days of March. It was that moment that I awakened and spring truly seemed to be in fruition. If there’s anything I learned from it, it’s not to make any decisions when stuck in a funk, or in winter at all. It gave me a different perspective, but the moment I emerged from the funk, I changed my mind. When I made my final decision, it was as though the final clouds had dissipated and the flowers had begun to bloom. With the lengthening of the days and the warmer sun comes longer hours of consciousness and awareness. Perhaps now that we’re all becoming aware again, the days will seem more inspiring and revealing for us...

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How many sunrises?

Posted by on Jan 14, 2013 in Life in Writing | 1 comment

How many sunrises?

The last sunrise of 2012. As soon as 2013 hit, I’d taken to a new hobby: photographing sunrises with my phone. It started with New Year’s Eve, first thing in the morning. I was up just long enough to feed the cats, but I took my phone downstairs with me. The last sunrise of the year was waiting for me. I snapped a photo, fed the cats, then went about my day. The following day, the exact same thing happened: I woke up, fed the cats, and saw the sun rising, so I snapped a photo. The first sunrise of the new year. A sunrise is a reminder that we’re living to see another day–a privilege, not a right. We might not necessarily get to see tomorrow’s sunrise. I look at them, myself, to remind myself that above all else, I’m alive, and that’s all that matters. I catch myself complaining a lot. In fact, I’m really bad for it. I know I have no reason to complain about anything, but I do it anyway. Instead of beating myself up for it, since that will only cause more negativity, I’ve been trying to divert my energy to something positive. The first sunrise of 2013. The other day, I was walking to the bus stop on my work, feeling grumpy and rushed and thinking of trivial things that didn’t really matter. As I was walking, I turned to see the sun just hovering over the horizon, casting a pale golden light on the ground below. The ice-coated snow reflected the light back, like a frozen mirror. The sight was breathtaking. I glanced at it distractedly, thinking to myself that I didn’t have time to stop and look, and that I’d miss my bus. I hesitated on that thought. Was that really the worst thing that could happen if I stopped to look at this sunrise? I set aside my petty problem for the time being. If I died that day, I didn’t want my only regret to be that I didn’t look at the sunrise long enough. These thoughts may seem a touch morbid to anyone else, but to me, it’s a reminder that I have so much to be thankful for. If my biggest concern is missing a bus because I stopped to look at a sunrise a little too long, I really don’t have many problems. So, I stopped to look at the sunrise for those who aren’t able to–for those who don’t have the same kind of freedom I have, and for those who have bigger things to worry about, like whether they’ll be able to eat tomorrow. And also, to remind myself that I am in control of my life, because too often do I say I “can’t” do something, when in reality, I simply won’t. The sunrise photos are, I suppose, a bit of a personal project. When I sleep through a sunrise, I take a picture of a sunset in the evening. I know I won’t do it every day and it’s not something I want to pressure myself into doing. It’s really just something for me to remind myself that life is great and it’s getting better all the...

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